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Journeying

Everyday, I am becoming. I am in constant bloom. And that’s who I am. A masterful work in progress. All the days of my life.

I’m learning that feeding my spirit on this journey is very much like feeding my body. I research foods, pay attention to how things make me feel, am intentional about what I’m putting in. I feel better, more energized, lighter. But the moment I divert from this path, I feel so much worse than I did before. Like the taste of all that is good and well has redefined all that isn’t.

When I fall off my spiritual practice my soul feels just like that. It’s been opened and awakened. It knows what good energy, positive thinking, love, and light feels like and what it can do in my life. Falling backwards feels so much worse now.

My words were flowing the way I needed them to. My visuals were reflecting how I felt inside. I was attracting work and opportunities that align with my intentions. Meditation and creative visualization were making their appearances in my daily routine. I was writing and becoming. Being still and observing. And then…

Restlessness abounds. And I immediately realize that, practicing meditation, being still, prayer, and journaling had dwindled, succumbing to the busyness of daily life, work and family, paying bills and adult realities. Taking the time to write and pray and meditate had become non-existent. And I just read somewhere, multiple places actually, that you can never be too busy to pray. Message received.

I am understanding that, this road of self discovery and aligning with my purpose is constant. That it requires daily practice and showing up. Every day. You have to embrace this with every ounce of you. Continually listen. Continually show up for you. And when you start to feel and witness the growth, that’s the moment where we stop because we think the work is done.

Keep going. Keep journeying. Keep discovering. There’s so much growing, living, and journeying to do. ~xoxo


Every Sunday I share a letter from my journey with those on my email list. WELL SPENT is part things I’ve come across that inspire me, things I think might resonate with you, and a lesson from the journey.



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Whoever You Are, Just Be That

Whoever You Are

“For a long time I defined myself by what I wasn’t. Which constantly set me up for failure and disappointment. My life changed when I focused on what I was, what I was good at, what I liked most about myself, and what made me stand out.” ~ Issa Rae

You know how when you finally notice something, it shows up everywhere in your life? Like, you can barely decipher whether these things have always been there or is it now that you’re aware, you just notice them more. That’s currently my life with self-discovery and learning to love, embrace, and just be all the layers of me.

While watching the annual celebration of black girl magic this week, Black Girls Rock, that experience has never been more prevalent. It seemed like every black girl that stepped on that stage had something to say about just being yourself. From Yara to Solange to Issa…it was all about embracing who you truly are. But it was Issa’s speech that stuck out to me the most. She talked about the moments where she learned that she’d never be cool enough, pretty enough, or funny enough. And how her definition of herself was built on the things that she wasn’t. This resonated with me to the core because girl, have I been there.

On this journey of learning to just be me, I constantly fall into the cycle of defining myself by what I’m not. I’m not business savvy enough, I’m not deep enough, I’m not woke enough, I’m not poetic enough, I don’t hustle enough, I don’t write enough…and this cycle always ends up at the same thought. That I’m not enough.

“This constantly set me up for failure and disappointment.”

If there is one thing I have learned on this journey that has impacted me the most so far, it’s that who you are, truly, is enough. And your purpose on this earth is to be that person. Because that person is exactly what this world needs. ~xoxo


Every Sunday I share a letter from my journey with those on my email list. WELL SPENT is part things I’ve come across that inspire me, things I think might resonate with you, and a lesson from the journey.



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What Really Happens When You Do it Afraid

Do it Afraid

When I dare to be powerful – to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid. ~ Audre Lorde

Last year I took on one of the biggest, scariest, projects of my freelance career so far. From first contact to completion, I was over here on this MacBook shook okay. Now, I know my fear was irrational at the end of the day, but that didn’t make me feel any less scared. That was over a year ago, and since then I’ve taken on new and challenging things, but nothing quite as scary as that. Interestingly enough though, I find myself in that familiar space once again. Where I’m being challenged to do something that is completely out of my comfort zone and yes, scary. To give myself a pep talk I thought back onto this project and reflected on how I overcame my fear. To remind myself–and you–what happens when you do it afraid.

You don’t stop being afraid, you push through.

There is nothing wrong with being scared. I think sometimes we’re so quick to slap a negative connotation to fear and dismiss it. It’s okay to be nervous. It’s just not okay to let that fear or nervousness control you. You can push through even with the fear. That’s essential to know. That fear doesn’t stop you from being able to do something unless you let it.

You acknowledge the “imposter” but you know the real

For this particular instance and many other instances, my fear was rooted in feeling like I wasn’t good enough or doubting myself. Like who I am to do this? Especially with the fact that I created this career for myself, literally, there was no straight path. I’m calling myself something because that’s what I do but somewhere I was seeking that validation. Imposter syndrome is real. But, you gotta let that go. If you were asked, hired, contacted, sought out, approved to do something, it’s because you can. You’ve shown that much or else you would have gotten the polite “No thank you, I’m fine.” You’ll probably always feel like an imposter. I feel like an imposter adult and I’ve technically been doing this thing for 12 years and I’m responsible for three humans so I mean…if that doesn’t tell you something than I don’t know what does!

Get real with the worst case scenario

“But did you die?” Hangover voice. I know it sounds crazy but during the course of this project, when I felt like I literally wasn’t going to make it I looked at the worse case scenario. I’d submit my work and they wouldn’t like it. That was it. There was nothing after that. Sometimes you just have to look your fear straight in the eye, and when you do you realize, it isn’t even that scary after all.

You rest on the knowledge that YOU HAVE THE TOOLS.

If there is one thing that I’ve come to realize as a freelance creative it’s that, my creativity truly is limitless. If something is brought to me, if I envision something, if I think of something, I have the tools to make it happen. And so do you. Rest on that truth when you’re feeling afraid. Rest on the knowledge you are absolutely capable of handling this thing.

Use your power and do it afraid. ~xoxo


Every Sunday I share a letter from my journey with those on my email list. WELL SPENT is part things I’ve come across that inspire me, things I think might resonate with you, and a lesson from the journey.



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Newsletters I’m Loving Right Now

Newsletters
Can I tell y’all how excited I am to have finally launched my newsletter?! I’ve only been blogging here since 2013 rolling eye emoji. But, better late than never they say. To be honest, what held me back for so long was making sure that I was offering something that was valuable to people. Even after multiple unsubscribe binge sessions, I still find some of my inboxes overflowing with meaningless newsletters full of noise, and sales, and updates, and anything but something I’m interested in reading. I didn’t want to be that, I didn’t want to add to the noise, so for a really long time, I just politely opted out of the whole newsletter thing. But, its always been at the back of my mind. And with a combination of paying attention to newsletters that I enjoy, reflecting on what it is I can actually offer in a newsletter, and a divinely timed client project, I’ve been able to discover my sweet spot.

This isn’t a plug–or maybe it is–to get you to sign up to my newsletter (even though it’s pretty lit). But, I actually wanted to share a few newsletters that I’m absolutely loving and maybe you will too. Because y’all know by now how I feel about sharing dope things I come across ;). I’m also just riding high off good newsletter vibes so why not?

JOIN THE NEWSLETTER

If You Like Curated Lists // The Ann Friedman Weekly – I think I signed up to this one after listening to an episode of Morra Aarons-Mele’s podcast. Sidebar: She’s awesome and I’ve been a fan of her work for women in the digital space for years. Anyway, if you’re like me and are simply obsessed with all forms of media, stories, what’s going on with the world, other people, and all of the good stuff the internet provides, you’ll like this. Ann Friedman‘s newsletter has a space for links she’s read, things she endorsed, things her readers endorse, a classifieds section, and what’s happening IRL. There’s even a secret space that paid subscribers have access to, which, if we’re talking about business, is pretty brilliant.

If You Like Biz Motivation // The Middle Finger Project – If you like small, daily bits of encouragement for your biz and life via the form of tough love, Ash Ambirge is the girl for you. I love that her emails are short, sweet, and to the point. Sometimes just a few sentences to gather your life real quick. And a small disclaimer, as you can tell by the name, this one is full of snark and grown folks language so if that’s not your thing, don’t say I didn’t warn you!

If You Like Personal Lifestyle // What I’m Feeling Friday by Myleik Teele – Oh you thought I was going to list something inspiring and not include my mentor-in-my-head on the list? And I thought y’all knew me. I’ve been signed up for Myleik’s Friday email since she first launched it. Besides being inspired by her work and hustle, I also follow her IG stories and love her recipes, travels, home decor, and anything she shares. Fangirl much? What I’m Feeling Friday is a more intimate look at the things she’s into and has going on in her life. And as I recently discovered in her last email, it’s a practice in consistency for her as well. I can definitely relate.

If You Like Spirituality & Holistic Wellness // Sacred Secrets Newsletter – For my earth women, moon children, and daughters of the sun you might just love this newsletter that I believe is sent with each New Moon and Full Moon. This one is really meaty and full of information on spiritual topics, healing, astrology, wellness, energy updates and more. I usually have to read it a few times to really soak everything in. But it’s really good, really deep, and one I look forward to. To be honest, I’m not exactly sure how to sign up for this one, as I connected with the author on Twitter awhile back but you can check out her Medium and connect with her if you’re interested.

As far as newsletters go, each of these are so different from each other but together, they basically represent me. Writer, lover of media, brown girl boss, and spiritual soul child. Issa me. ~xoxo


Every Sunday I share a letter from my journey with those on my email list. WELL SPENT is part things I’ve come across that inspire me, things I think might resonate with you, and a lesson from the journey.



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What Do You Want to Be Known For?

What Do You Want to Be Known For
Every so often (read as every other day) I have these moments where I wonder what I’m supposed to be doing in life. It’s funny really, when I think about it. The way my mind loves to stay on this existential merry-go-round. Even when I feel like I have a good handle on things for the moment, there’s always another, not to far away that has me questioning everything I know. During a moment like the latter, I happened to listen to a podcast–what else is new–on creative entrepreneurship and life. The hosts proposed that instead of asking yourself what you want to do, ask yourself “What do you want to be known for?”. I liked this question way better because it’s a whole lot easier for me to answer.

I asked my son before, what he wanted to be when he grew up. He told me he wanted to be himself. His answered inspired my own.

I want to be known for me. That’s it. I’m a complex woman with many layers and many titles. I want to be known for embracing all of who I am, boldly and unapologetically.

I don’t fit neatly into any box. I can’t effortlessly sum up what I do or love in a 30 – 60 second elevator pitch. I don’t want to and I’m done with trying. If that means I’ll never make it on to a coveted list or am never recognized for being a pioneer or innovator, that’s more than fine with me. But for the people who do connect with me, the ones whose paths cross mine, the ones who read my words…I hope you see me. Know me for me and all of my many layers, interests, passions and love.

What do you want to be known for?


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Thoughts On: Minimalism

Minimalism
I’ve been thinking a lot about minimalism lately. It honestly all came about during a ridiculous laundry session where I realized that every, single, person in this house has way too many clothes and simultaneously never has anything to wear. That and the fact that my room, my kids room, my garage, my basement, my office corner, my mind, my everything is just so cluttered and full of meaningless stuff I wanted to scream. And then, I thought about minimalism.

What would it really take to live a minimalistic lifestyle? What does that look like for me and my family? My work? My closet? My life. I feel the need to just clear some space. To have some space to be. To declutter, to gain clarity, to get balance. And I think that this constant overflow of stuff, all day, everywhere isn’t helping get any of those things at all.

Now, I don’t want to be one of those like, extreme minimalists. But I do feel this tug at just getting rid of the extra stuff. So I can make room for the good stuff. The things that make this whole life thing love.


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Vegan-ish

Vegan-ish

Based off of the number of texts I been receiving and questions about my food choices, it’s safe to say What the Health has a lot of people rethinking their entire food situations. I get it. I had the same kind of epiphany after watching Forks over Knives awhile back. Learning–like really learning–how food affects your body is life changing for sure. But, as far as What the Health…I have mixed feelings. And judging by my social media timelines, I seem to fall somewhere solidly in the middle of people totally here for it and people completely irked by it.

I’m not going to get into the documentary though. This isn’t a review. I’m honestly just here to share my very brief thoughts and experience and thoughts on food and diet.

So here’s the thing, and y’all know by now I don’t do the whole title thing, I’m what my hubs likes to affectionately call, a fake ass vegan. What he means–though I appreciate his knack for cutting through the bullshit and fluff–is I mostly follow a vegetarian diet, I go through vegan seasons, but above all else, I listen to my body.

And that last part is really what I hope people take from the countless documentaries popping up, the vegan food blogs, and all the noise currently floating around about the standard American diet and food choices.

If you’ve read my Choosing Natural post, you know that I decided to focus on plant based eating for health reasons. And based off of how my body has reacted since making that decision, I know that it was best for me. And anytime I get too far off course, my body has no problem reminding me that it does better without meat and dairy.

When it comes to overall health, disease, and the foods we eat, yes, there are major correlations that we should be aware of. But I’m by no means about to sit here and start screaming off stats that sound wildly off base (one egg equivalent to 5 cigarettes? Um…yea no) and promoting fear (of course KFC chicken isn’t good for anyone but organic chicken might be okay for you). Switching to a vegan-ish diet has worked for me and I definitely suggest plant based as much as possible for anyone. And if you ask me about dairy, I’m gonna tell you no, no, no, and nope. But above all else, do your research and listen to your body. Try new things and just eat better overall.


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Currently…

Currently

Hey friends. It’s been a little bit. Last time I checked in, I was writing from the other side of 30. There were plans for a birthday post but, I think I got out everything I needed to in She. So here I am, 30 and a week, feeling pretty much the same but, I guess that’s how birthdays go. As per usual when I’m out of the loop, a Currently // Life Lately post is right on time. Just a few odds and ends of my life, currently.

What I’m Reading

I just picked up Year of Yes by Shonda Rhimes again after hearing Lauren Ash of BGIO talk about it on a recent podcast. I’ve had this book forever it seems. At least a year. And for some reason, I’ve just never been able to work my way through it. I’ve started it more times than I can count and usually for me, that means I’m not into it. Lauren had me rethinking my life though so I tried to dig in, once more, this time just picking up where I left off. So, much, goodness. There’s a post coming soon on a chapter that touched me to my core.

What I’m Listening To

I recently discovered this amazingly talented, young singer from Philly named Masie Blu. I was listening to a playlist on Soundcloud when her song Sankofa came on and grabbed all of my attention. I was immediately in love with the soulful, futuristic, jazz vibes of the song and the message was so divinely timed, it blew my mind. Seriously. I spent the next few hours listening to her music and she’s dope. For real. Some of my favorites are Sankofa (obviously), Antelopes and Starseeds, and Nia.

What I’m Watching

Not What the Health, which everyone and their mama has been texting and messaging me about. I keep trying to tell people I’m not real life vegan but I guess my Instagram stories is saying otherwise. What I am obsessed with though is Queen Sugar. The way that show is able to portray the intimate and intricate dynamic of the black family is genius. I wish I was like a pop culture blogger because I surely would be writing somebody’s recap every Wednesday night. It’s really that good.

What I’m Eating

I’m learning that the key to making good vegan meal is the spices. I mean, aside from like simple veggies, salads, smoothies, and rice bowls, to make a good soulful vegan meal, it comes down to the spices. Can I tell y’all how I’ve been searching high and low for smoked paprika? It’s sold out everywhere around here, and I live in a pretty diverse neighborhood with very diverse grocery stores. I guess everyone has been down except for me. I’m experimenting with more recipes because I’m getting kind of bored. By no means, do I feel like switching back to a meat based/dairy diet but I am lowkey a foodie at heart and I want to bring back some of that in my plant based journey. I’m ordering my first vegan cookbook, Afro-Vegan, so hopefully that’ll be a good start.

Other Things I’m Loving

A random trip to CVS in the middle of night I discovered the Magnolia Journal by Chip & Joanna Gaines. Fellow Fixer Upper fans, why didn’t I know about this? I am so inspired by Joanna’s hustle. She has her hand in so many pots it’s like a dream for a person like me who has a gold notebook full of ideas and projects I want to launch. But a quarterly journal? Full of things she loves, things that inspire her, stories from other entrepreneurs and women, recipes, home decor inspo that is spot on, all in an editorial print magazine?! I live.

Hope your summer has been treating you well. ~xoxo


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She

She

It all stems from her desire for acceptance.
Because she’s never been good at expressing what’s inside, outside. And so, she felt perpetually misunderstood.
And to be honest, what she saw in her heart didn’t look like anything around her.
Being of little strength, she turned away from it.
She transformed into something more palatable and easily digestible.
And for a moment in time it worked.
Until she lost herself in the person she was pretending to be.

She was so used to pretending.
She couldn’t tell if her dreams were her own. And that became the nightmare.
Too much make believe and not enough living.
Her prayers for clarity grew into prayers for discernment.
She’s lived lifetimes hiding in the pretenders shadow.

Her eyes are open but she’s blind to the truth.
Her mind is weak, feeble, and easily swayed from lack of foundation.
She’s discovered her third eye but hasn’t learned to see through it, distrusting her own thoughts.
Surrounded by darkness she follows the stars. Mini constellations as roadmaps. Guiding her back to herself.

For so long she’s been scared to share her truth…
When she has, the silence has reinforced her beliefs.
In turn, she silenced her voice.
And learned a lesson.
That the only thing worse than nobody understanding her…
is not understanding herself.

So she searches for her truth.
Ready to stand by its reveal.
Afraid but determined. Unashamed and unapologetic.
Anxious of how she may be received but willing to trade the worlds cold reaction for her spirit’s warm embrace.

It all comes down to love.
Acceptance.
And protection for her SELF.
Because she’s learned it’s a dangerous space to be when she simply doesn’t know how to exist as…
Me.


About a month or so ago, I started to think about my journey to 30. And not surface level things–trust me, I’ve thought enough about that–but internal, soul things. I would jot down whatever came to my mind from time to time. The result was this. I didn’t actually realize I started it, but I knew it was finished. Less than a week before my birthday. God moving in my life as usual. I’m thankful. ~xoxo

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The Dream Work

The Dream Work

I’ve always wanted my writing to help, inspire, empower, or uplift my people. Especially black women. From my creative endeavors–like this blog–to my freelance work, to volunteering in my community, it’s why the majority of my clients are black women entrepreneurs. This was intentional for me from the moment I started to build my career (and blog) and although it’s been a slow and steady grind, it has been worth every moment.

In the past couple of weeks I’ve partnered with a black owned marketing agency, interviewed a black woman entrepreneur that I admire, and joined a team of black women as a wellness writer for a beauty brand. Not to mention my ongoing work as a content strategist and manager for two really dope black woman centered platforms.

I’m literally doing the dream work.

Also, in the past couple weeks, I learned that talking more about how I got here, can help people who are working to do the same. As much as I am about celebrating all victories, I am notorious for downplaying my own when I think about the world of creative people doing so many dope things. It feels like mine are too small to share, so most times I don’t. But, after helping someone discover their path by simply explaining what I’ve learned and what I did, I understand that sharing is really a way to continue that dream work on another layer.

I wish I could tell you some deep, detailed plan to do the work you dream of doing but, that’s not a formula I’ve mastered. Here’s what I do know though:

Think about what it is that you really want to do. I think one of the biggest obstacles to living the lives that we want is that many times, people don’t actually know. I know I didn’t for a long time. And I have moments where I still don’t. There are a lot of reasons for this. Social media being a big one. Too often we associate what “our faves” are doing to what we want to do. Like, if you see that one person drinking mimosas and traveling every weekend for conferences and now you want to as well. Except you don’t even like mimosas or traveling without your family…that’s a disconnect. It’s tough to fight through the noise and work on being still but, it’s essential.

Concentrate on doing more of what you love and less of the rest. I am a mother and I have bills. Not all of my work is sunshine and unicorns, but the majority of it is stuff I truly enjoy. And I’m constantly working on getting as close to “all” as I can. I make a conscious effort to work with companies and businesses in my freelance work that align with my values. And all of my creative endeavors come from a place deep in my heart. Sometimes this comes with a bit of a sacrifice. That dream client might not exactly pay what you’d like but that’s where being really clear on what it is that you want comes into play. You’ll know your boundaries. And also, doing more of what you love attracts more of what you love.

Understand there’s no right way or one way to do things. This is a biggie. For me personally, I’m in an industry where there are a million and one “gurus” and “coaches” that want to tell you that things are this way and this way only and this is how you do it. Except no. That’s not true. If I believed that for even a minute, I’d be still working my job in corporate America right now instead of writing this while my son is running around waiting for us to go outside. You have a unique vision for your life so your path will be unique. Take what you need from people giving advice–even me, shit especially me because I’m still figuring it out–and keep it moving.

Write the vision and keep writing it. Over and over. Allow it to change and grow. Document what you’ve accomplished. Reflect back on what it took to get there. There’s so much to be said about this. I’ve been journaling consistently–leaving that open to interpretation–since 2015 and when I look back at the goals I wrote down then, the things I was learning, the work I was putting it…it’s kind of wild. There are things that are happening now that are exactly what I wrote, two years ago. Not only is writing a spiritual practice (see Habbakuk 2:2) but it’s also an accountability practice. I’m all over the place, all the time, and referencing my writing is centering. It gets me back on track and my head back in the game. Every time.

Practice gratitude daily. Hourly. All day. You are here, you are taking steps, you are breathing, you are living. You are earning, you are learning, you are setting examples. You are loving, you are growing, you are shining. You are blessed, you are loved. That’s the dream life, that’s the dream work. You have got to practice gratitude for all that you have. Major key.

Go forth and do your dream work love. ~xoxo


Every Sunday I share a letter from my journey with those on my email list. WELL SPENT is part things I’ve come across that inspire me and things I think might resonate with you.



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Carefree Summer ’17

Carefree Summer

The summer solstice is upon us, summer break has arrived for my boys, and I have absolutely nothing planned for this entire summer. I’m affectionately dubbing this #ourcarefreesummer and will be documenting the whole adventure, and some days the lack thereof.

I don’t know whether it’s just exhaustion from the constant planning, my annual reflective state multiplied by a million with my 3oth birthday on the horizon, or simply the fact that this summer snuck up on me and ya girl was not ready, like at all. But, I just wasn’t here for the super structured, activity overload, insanely organized summer. No thank you, y’all can have it.

I planned nothing, I have no idea how the days will go. All I got, is that we’ll take it day by day. Go where sun takes us. Play where the breeze feels nice. I’ll let them explore and I’ll take lots of naps. We’ll do random things and hopefully experience an epic adventure or two. Carefree summer ’17. ~xoxo


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Perspective

Perspective

The only difference between a flower and a weed is a judgement. ~ Wayne Dyer

As much as I am a coffee girl at heart, there’s something about those teacup messages, or as I like to affectionately call them, messages from the universe, that provide just what I need to read at exactly the moment I need to read it.

Today’s teacup/universe message was no different. It was a familiar and confirming one, as I’d had the same sentiment months before.

Being a mama of boys is so special. Endless flowers delivered to me on a daily basis from their outdoor jaunts. I always make a big deal of it too because 1. What mama doesn’t like gifts from her babies and 2. It teaches them that giving flowers to the woman you love is always, always, a good idea. You’re welcome future daughter in laws ;).

Needless to say, by technical arbitrary definition, these flowers my boys so loving adorn my locs, lap and hands with…can be called weeds…depending on your perspective. But weeds to who? Not to them who see vibrant life peeking up from the dirt and green earth. To them all that matters is the newness, the freshness, our lawns lovely decorations.

They gather them up by the handfuls these flowers. They solidify their value and their place as earths’ adornments. And they pass these most gracious of gifts onto me. Who am I to tell them any different?

Perspective (n) a particular attitude toward or way of regarding something; a point of view.

I’ve long been a believer that perspective changes your life. It goes far deeper than the cliche half empty half full reference. It can literally be infused into every area of your life. Whether that’s how you view obstacles/opportunities, trials/testimonies, work/freedom or flowers/weeds.

Change your perspective, change your life. ~xoxo


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Am Writing

Wandering or Lost

Not all who wander are lost. ~ J.R.R. Tolkien

No matter how hard I try, I’m just not good at wandering. I wish I was though because I’m almost certain that being good at wandering would help with me always feeling so…lost. 

I have a notebook in my Evernote app simply called Am Writing. It’s where I store all my thoughts and ideas. The ones that come to me while I’m standing in line at Target or in the middle of an elementary school drop off. Am Writing is full of thoughts. Some complete, many not, but all full of depth. Lessons learned and those soon to be discovered. Answers to questions I haven’t had yet. Memories and details. Rants and unfinished sentences. That’s what Am Writing is…that’s who I am when I am writing.

It’s no secret that I’ve struggled with this gift of mine. I’ve blogged about it before. I’ve ignored it. I’ve hated it. I’ve been confused by it and empowered by it. Many times at the same damn time. It is my soul’s greatest mystery. How curious to be so completely unsure of how to handle something that you know is meant for you.

Lately, I’ve felt compelled to write like never before. And for once, quite terrifyingly actually, the words have escaped me. Well, more like they have hidden from me. They have been inside me as I can feel them. Yes, physically feel them. Like an invisible object, pressing against an imaginary bottom of my throat. It’s been real, as I struggle with this very physical reaction to an obstacle that exists only in my mind. To get out the words, stirring below the surface, causing all types of mayhem and drama as they struggle to break free. And me, feeling so helpless as I try physical methods to release them from their prisons. I do such meaningless things like clearing my throat in hopes they can come to the surface or taking a nap anxiously anticipating their release as I rest. And for days–which is a lifetime when writing is what you do for survival–I’ve been feeling like I’m silently yelling into a black hole.

I’ve have started to understand that I’m meant to write. And that reality scares me because, I don’t know what I’m supposed to do with that self knowledge. I’m meant to write what? Share what? Release what? Do you know how insane it feels to know you’re supposed to do something but you don’t know exactly what that is or how to go about it? It’s a feeling that I’ve never known before and it’s enough to have the words to explain hide themselves from you.

But, the words came to me today. And I immediately set them free. To explain why I’m feeling the way I do. To ensure that it’s all part of the process. To remind that these experiences are preparing me for the work I am called to do. To affirm that I’m on time, even though I feel far behind. I set the words free and I feel good about letting them go. Now, I have the space to explore, once again, my soul’s greatest mystery. One step closer to understanding…


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Well Spent

 A weekly reflection + a few links for you. 

Another week in the books. I can’t believe we’re already approaching halfway through May. And only two months away from my 30th birthday. Insert wide eye emoji. My last year in my twenties was supposed to be the year of the glow up and I guess, in a sense it has been. Just not in the way that I expected. Life is funny like that and if there’s anything that I’ve learned in this last year it’s to embrace all the parts. The ebbs, the flows, and all the pieces in the middle.

Highlight from this week: Night Market. For sure. I broke my “not quite” vegan diet–keeping it real–for a jerk chicken cheesesteak and I’m not sorry. My body wasn’t pleased though and by Saturday I was sipping on Ginger tea and trying to figure out my life. Still not sorry. Best part though was watching my kids perform. When Dad’s a professional hip hop dancer that got his start dancing in the street, when there’s a festival, you dance! Really blessed to give my children a chance to see another way of living. Another way of life.

I thought about including a struggle or lesson or something of the sort here but it’s really just much of the same. The creative balance, not having enough time, and trying to find ways to do more of what I love and less of the rest. Same old, same old. Hopefully I’ll have something deeper next week? Yea? I feel like I share my lessons in my regular blog posts though so…maybe not. We’ll see.

Anyways, Happy Mother’s Day to all the mamas. A bit of unsolicited advice: Live your best life today and don’t do the things you think you “should”. Do you mama. It’s your day. Enjoy.

Things You Should Read/Listen to This Sunday

  • Shout out to Melissa at #blkcreatives for including me on this list of moms that are balancing motherhood with the business of creativity. As a working mother chasing a dream and building a business, I never quite feel like I’m getting it right, but then moments like these happen. Completely unexpected but I’m thankful. And do y’all see the company I’m in? I feel like I made it.

  • I think this just might be my favorite MyTaughtYou podcast episode, ever. Tia Williams’ transparency was everything I needed and more. It was like she knew my life. All of it. From her profession in the beauty space, to the feelings of never being good enough, to the daily pain she goes through, to her epic quote “I did what I always did and wrote my way out…” it was like I was listening to parts of my own story. There’s something so wild about that. Tell your stories. People need to hear them. And make sure you go listen to this one.

  • Speaking of Myleik, she shared two NY Times articles that said . One was about Facebook and the other Instagram. Spoiler alert, they’re basically think pieces about the type of behavior that Bow Wow (along with countless others) perform. I have been so over social media lately which is a really weird space to be when you’re a blogger/content creator/editor. I’m tired of seeing the facade. Why is everyone so obsessed with making things look different than what they are? It’s too much. I find myself thinking more and more about opting out of all it. Don’t worry, I can’t and I’m not.

  • Even in the midst of my current disdain for social media, I have to mention Everyday Eyecandy’s Instagram Storytellers series. Her account, along with the people she features are such a breath of fresh air. The photos and the stories within them are the part of social media I love most. I’m obsessed. Not to mention, I’ve been really digging photography/visual storytelling lately. Yup, just add another creative venture to my list. Eyeroll emoji. But honestly, as the world gets noisier and more crowded, there’s something magical in the stillness of photos. I’m only an iphone photography…for now…but this series is love and is full of inspiring people.

That’s all I got. Happy Sunday. Happy Mother’s Day. ~xoxo


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Communicating with God

Communicating with God

I’ve always been a firm believer that there are no coincidences. Things happen intricately with each other throughout our lives, piece by piece to form the bigger picture in which we all live. So when I put the beginnings of this post into my drafts, the pieces of thoughts about writing and communicating with God…I wasn’t sure if what I was trying to say would make sense.

 {Sidebar: I have got to, like seriously must, stop second guessing and doubting myself, my thoughts, and subsequently my words. I hold back far too much due to being “unsure” and it’s all pretty sad, the things I keep to myself that I could be sharing in fear that I might be “wrong”. But I digress….}

I wasn’t sure, if the way I felt that I communicated with God was, ya know, like an “acceptable” way. Like it was real. Like it had meaning. Ugh, I cringe writing that out now. How limiting those words are. Like it was real? Seriously?! And this is what I mean–and what you will come to understand hopefully if I can ever get to the point–when I talk about how God communicates with me. I can think all day long, I can even talk it out sometimes, but none of it really makes sense. I can never really get to the root of it all until I write. When I write, it all becomes clear. The answers I seek appear before me. The peace, the calm, the clarity, the discernment that comes when I write is truly a divine phenomenon.

God communicates with me through my writing. 

I know this to be true. When I tell you the way things are really worked out for me when I started to pour myself out with words? Sis. They aren’t mine. I assure you, they aren’t. I don’t have these answers as I’m thinking over my issues and dilemmas. I don’t have them when I’m attempting to explain something, to identify something, to expound on something. They aren’t there. I promise you. But when I write, they all come. Every time. It’s even lowkey one of the affirmations that I wrote: My creativity is limitless. I initially wrote that to mean, as a professional writer, I never have to worry about not having something to say, because the words always come. But, it’s only now that I’m beginning to have a deeper understanding of why that is. My creativity is God communicating with me. It’s the God within me (Psalms 46:5).

I feel like I’ve known this for a long time. It’s one of the reasons why I love to journal my bible study and prayers. I can get my true prayers out when I write them. When I speak them from the top of my head, they never come out right. And there’s something to be said about praying with a bunch of empty words…sips tea…

And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him. ~Matthew 6:7-8

And for clarity, because I do believe in the power of the tongue, I often read them aloud after I’ve written them.

But even though I’ve known this, because of the person I am–I’m trying to change I promise I am–I still didn’t write this post. Maybe it was “busyness” or maybe it was me still seeking confirmation that my thoughts and feelings were valid. Another cringeworthy moment–#Notetoself: Your thoughts and feelings are ALWAYS valid. But it was when I saw a tweet that put in 140 characters what it’s taking me a whole post and a thousand months to write:

Prayer is when you talk to God. Meditation is when God talks to you. ~ Maryam Hasnaa

And for me, personally, for Tyshia…writing is one of my most deepest forms of meditation. Writing is when God talks to me. And I will forever be thankful for our conversations. ~xoxo


Every Sunday I share a letter from my journey with those on my email list. WELL SPENT is part things I’ve come across that inspire me and things I think might resonate with you.



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