One of my favorite gospels songs is Anyway by Lonnie Hunter. The song opens up with the words:
Grace is when you get more than you deserve. Mercy is when you don’t get exactly what you do deserve.
From there the song continues into a repeating verse acknowledging how God blesses us above and beyond what we deserve. Acknowledging that His mercy continues even after we fall short. And apologizing for those shortfalls.
It’s one of my favorite gospel songs because it resonates so deeply with me. I can’t even begin to count how many times I’ve come up short, been a disappointment, made a bad decision, or simply didn’t put my best foot forward in my 29 years of life. To say I am imperfect would be the understatement of a lifetime. Still, when I look at my life, to say I’ve been abundantly blessed doesn’t even come close to describing the grace God has bestowed upon me.
I’ve mentioned it before but, recently, I’ve been dealing with some personal things that have thrown me through a whirlwind. What an emotional roller coaster these past couple of months have been. I’ve gone through panic–because anxiety–a period of anger, a feeling of hopelessness, and then some semblance of acceptance. Through all of this though, I’ve found myself asking the question “Why me?” more than a few times. Why me? But today, it hit me.
I didn’t ask why me for any number of the blessings I did not deserve. Not why me for the times God has removed me from toxic situations in my life. Didn’t stop to say why me when I made it through to the other side of every other trial I’ve overcome. Did not say a why me prayer when God’s grace and mercy have literally saved my life. So why, now, am I asking why me?
The truth is, asking “why me?” is a pretty faithless question. It assumes that whatever trial or tribulation I’m currently dealing with, I won’t overcome. It also assumes that I don’t trust the current season of my life and that I don’t believe that everything is working for my good. Sorry but, my faith is not set up that way.
Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds ~ James 1:2
Perspective is everything and when you look at every circumstance, every obstacle, every trial through a faith perspective it can only mean that good things are on the way. Remember, all things are working for your good. #notetoself
With love & blessings ~ xoxo