I’ve been quiet around here and on social media for the past week or so. Much to my surprise. You see, I had big plans for this past week. I was going to stick to my editorial calendar, I was going to map out what the rest of the quarter looked like for Hubs and I business wise, and I was celebrating an invitation to a statewide parent conference this summer. Things were great…
until and then life threw me a curveball. Curveballs are not my thing. I was done. Out for the count, ready to throw in the towel. I couldn’t think, couldn’t work, and didn’t really want to either. All I could do, was think about this curveball and a mountain of what if’s that came along with it. I couldn’t live in the present moment let alone enjoy it because my thoughts were–and full transparency, at moments still can be–consumed by endless thoughts regarding my current situation, the uncertainty of the future, and that looming mountain of what if’s I mentioned before.
In moments like this, turning and leaning wholeheartedly on the Lord is all I can do. And sadly, it’s moments like this that serve as a heartbreaking reminder that I haven’t been in His word as much I know I should be. It’s like these curveballs in my life are a reminder that I didn’t do this on my own, I didn’t get here on my own, and I can’t get to where I’m going on my own. They push me to focus on what’s important in life, they drive me into His presence, they call me to truly lean on my faith…as in it’s time to put that faith into practice. And it’s moments like this where I grow as one of God’s children.
It’s a reminder to practice gratitude, for all things, because there’s blessings and lessons in trials.
And please know, I don’t say all this to gloss over the fact that, I’m still in a real life trial. The curveball is still on it’s way, but I will no longer be paralyzed by it’s arrival. Instead I will be renewed with strength, full of hope. And most importantly, in His presence and immersed in His word.
Here are some verses that are helping me remain faithful through the storm.
What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? – Romans 8:31
“For I know the plans I have you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” – Jeremiah 29:11-13
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them.. For the Lord, your God goes with you: He will never leave you nor forsake you. – Deuteronomy 31:6
And one to help with the worry.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?” – Matthew 6:25-27