Life

    Abundance

    Abundance
    Some months ago I wrote a journal entry after meditating on the concept of abundance. A concept that I’ve struggled with for as long as I can remember. Sounds strange, but hear me out. I’ve not struggled with the idea of abundance itself. I embrace it, I yearn for it, I’m intrigued by it. But, I’ve struggle with believing that abundance is already mine. And this struggle has led me to chase so many things that don’t make sense, that I don’t believe in, that don’t align, feed or fuel me in order to obtain it.

    But, how do you obtain something that is already yours?

    If I’m to understand and believe that my very being is aligned with abundance, then the thing I need to do is follow those things that I’ve been called towards and am pulled to. My personal legend, as named in The Alchemist.

    Why is that so scary then? The idea that, you can let go of the things that aren’t serving you, aren’t helping you grow, or aren’t bringing you joy? Why do we feel like, we have to do these things that are so opposite in order to receive the abundance…that we already have? Why do we feel there must be some pain, or sadness, or angst in order to have abundant life? How contradictory.


    For me, I sometimes feel torn. Between the truth that my ancestors did not have such choices and the thought that, they fought for me to have such choices so why would I do anything less? It’s a constant battle in my mind trying to figure out if me deciding to wholeheartedly pursue my personal legend is in honor of them, or, a selfish disregard for their experiences.

    Most of the time, I rest in the truth that I am here today. And the belief that abundance is mine. And the hope that I’m honoring even the slightest piece of my ancestors struggles by boldly living and walking the paths they laid out for me.

    Anything less seems like a travesty.

    I mean…that’s all I want for those that come after me. My children and their children and their children. To be able. Whatever that means for them. Not to be whatever this world tries to force them to be. I want only for them, to be able, in the highest sense of the word. And it’s that desire that catches in my throat, illuminating the uncertainties in the corners of my mind.

    Will I be able to do it? Without pushing myself to fall in line and do the things that don’t align because they’re “safe”–er. Is this unconventional (to society) path something that will allow me lay a brighter path for them? Will I be able to leave them more than what’s left to me when it’s all said and done? Because isn’t that what we’re all just trying to do?

    I have to believe the answer is yes. And I have to believe that the most important things, they have. I have to believe that abundance is theirs too. And maybe, believe the best thing I could do, is to help prevent them from ever feeling this struggle by laying the example. The one that encourages and inspires them to be able and to follow their gifts, curiosities, talents, passions with full confidence that is enough, they are taken care of, and abundance is provided.


    Most Sundays I share a letter from my journey with those on my email list. WELL SPENT is part things I’ve come across that inspire me, things I think might resonate with you, and a lesson from the journey.



  • Flowers
    Life Words

    Flowers

    There are many women inside me. A garden. Rich with many flowers. Each one in bloom. Separate. But together they are whole. Both beautiful and complex. Wildflowers. That grow with reckless…

  • No Dreams Deferred
    Life

    No Dreams Deferred

    This past Sunday, my newsletter was about all the feels I had while watching the Humans of New York series. I’m telling you, for a girl who lives in her feelings,…

  • 'Tis the Season
    Life

    ‘Tis the Season

    Yesterday, I finally made my way into our garage to begin gathering the Christmas decorations. Last year was my absolute favorite tree. Like of all time. We don’t buy real trees…

  • Feelings
    Life

    Feelings…

    Aptly titling this one feelings because I’ve said the word “feel” more times than normal for me. I’m sure you know by now I feel all the things all the time.…

  • Soul Spaces: Home
    Life

    Soulful Spaces: Home

    It’s funny how creativity works. It’s magical, of course, the way it can manifest in a person. How it shows up in many forms, unique to the individual. For some it’s…

  • In Current Rotation
    Beauty Style

    In Current Rotation

    I haven’t done a beauty post in awhile and it’s been forever and a day since I’ve written about style. I know I said before I was going to do more…

  • Do the Thing
    Life

    Do the Thing

    I’ve always been the kind of girl that lives in her thoughts. I guess that’s what makes writing so appealing to me. It’s “acceptable” to live in your thoughts as a…

  • Writing Like Nobody's Reading
    Life

    Writing Like Nobody’s Reading

    I’ve been debating this decision for months now. To NaNoWriMo or nah. For those who have no idea what I’m talking about, NaNoWriMo is where writers around the world commit to…

  • Why I Write
    Life

    Why I Write

    In Big Magic, author Elizabeth Gilbert warns about creating to help other people. To be exact she writes: You are not required to save the world with your creativity…I would prefer…

  • Tending your garden
    Life

    On Tending Your Own Garden

    Yesterday, I posted a piece of work that was essentially me brimming to the edge with creative revelation, energy, and needing to express all that was bubbling within before I burst.…

  • Crops
    Life

    Crops

    I have spent lifetimes watering the seeds that others have planted. And witnessed harvests. I’ve collected and hunted. I’ve shared and I’ve curated. Content. I have spent lifetimes tending to the…

  • Intentional Abundance
    Life

    Choosing Intentional Abundance

    Over the summer, I shared some thoughts that I was having about minimalism. That post was born of frustration and exhaustion at all the stuff I’d found myself surrounded with. I…

  • September Homeschool Recap
    Motherhood

    September Homeschool Recap

    With the first month of homeschool pre-k 2017 behind us, I thought it’d be a good time to share what’s been going on in our journey. The universe is doing that…

  • Journeying
    Life

    Journeying

    Everyday, I am becoming. I am in constant bloom. And that’s who I am. A masterful work in progress. All the days of my life. I’m learning that feeding my spirit…